I’m not one for New Years Resolutions – mostly, because I believe in daily resolutions.
I like believing that today I can change something I couldn’t yesterday, without waiting for the end of a year. Maybe it reminds me that every day calls for me being strong.
Anyways, saying goodbye to 2013 is bittersweet.
Some of my closest friends would agree in saying, I have not gone a year without some major change or challenge. Very true, I don’t disagree. However, looking back… I would definitely say, 2013 was a year of deep change and challenge moving toward healing.
Lots of things happened in 2013:
- First year of post-grad blues
- I moved forward from feeling heart-broken
- Obtained a leadership job
- Proved to myself and others that I have a voice
- Spread my roots to becoming self-dependant
- I learned how to take steps of loving myself better
Okay I will confess, I think of 2013 in regards to 2012…however, 2013 was a result of 2012.
(Whatever, it all makes sense in my head, okay?)
The point is I am letting go of 2013 with a bittersweet heart. It seems like each new year promises grandeur. An endless list of possibilities. When 2013 began, I didn’t feel like I had a place of my own. I felt unsettled by the notion of the future and had no idea what my next steps would be or where I would go.
I am happy to say this is not true for 2014. I have plans and goals and wishes for this year. I am so excited for what is to come.
I am excited to see how I continue to grow in my current job. I am not naive to expect an easy run but I am looking forward to what God does through me. I also cannot wait to see what I learn from going back to studies. In the last month, it’s become all too clear to me that I want to pursue further studies. For a while now, I’ve been struggling with what I’d like to study. What would fuel my heart, my passions and my life? I’ve discovered a subject that I’ve often given a blind eye to because so much could follow. Anyways. I don’t know if 2014 is the year I begin further studies, but today, I know what I want to pursue and what I don’t.
And I guess, that’s all I can ask for.
Lastly, as this new year has started, I feel strong. A sense I have not felt with the passing of other years. Yes, other years, came when I wasn’t ready for them. But today, I feel ready for 2014. Today, I know who I am and to me, that’s all that really matters.
Today, I am very joyful.