One thing I love about God is how well He guides me. He’s been so good to me.
A year ago, around this time I’d been planted with a thought of moving to Indiana. At first, I didn’t want to even think about it – nah dude, I wanted to do my own thing.
However, as the thought lingered in my mind, I began to think about this opportunity that was rising. I couldn’t get it out of my mind. Slowly things progressed and soon enough, I knew Indiana was going to be a destination I was going to hit.
I was going to work at this church I’d come in contact with. It was going to happen. I just knew the more I talked with the Pastor from the church, the more I thought about it… the more I wasn’t going to be able to keep away.
Now, a year later, I’ve been officially offered the position of Family Ministries Director. I went from Intern to Interim Family Ministries Director to now the official person.
I feel blessed. I can’t believe how God has worked through me. How He’s connected my heart. Honestly, how He’s made my heart so loving that it cares for complete strangers.
And now, with a job more permanent it’s time to think of a more permanent living place. I don’t think I have enough financial cushion yet to move out on my own. However, I’ve been thinking about it since Sunday when a friend brought it up.
I’ve never lived on myself or had my own place – ever. I’d like a roommate too. But the more I think about it… the more I feel like I want to try. I want my own place. I want people to visit me. I want to host. (I’ve always felt awkward about hosting, but I want to do it so bad.) I want friends to come over to my place.
I love where I live now.
However, I feel the time is coming for me to discover more of myself in a different environment. In a place where I am responsible for my own needs. Where I pay for rent, utilities and life in general. Frankly, I’m so scared of something like that but at the same time, I feel like I want it so bad. I didn’t realize I’d like this idea so much.
I just want to do it at the right time… At the time God has ordained it – regardless if it’s easy or hard. I want to keep moving forward in the ways that He wants me to because it’s the best way.
So today, I am excited about the future. I’m excited where life is going. I don’t feel as lost as I did a few months ago. No, I feel like for now, I am found and tomorrow is just another day to enjoy.